Not so Perfect

This is a post that will never get “old.”

February 2012:

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people behave as though they are perfect, that they’ve never done anything embarrassing/hurtful/stupid etc., and they judge everyone else for making similar mistakes.  A related “peeve” is when people behave as though they have it all together all the time. Ugh.

If you’ve been reading my blog, you know that I don’t have it all together. I struggle with a lot of things. If someone asks me, I’ll say I’m fine…because I really am. I have so much to be grateful for, so I try to focus on the positive. However, if someone has more than a few seconds to chat, I’ll tell you briefly what’s bothering me. God knows we don’t have it together which is why He sent Jesus to rescue and redeem us. God also cares about relationships and knows we can’t do life by ourselves, which is why He’s given us family and friends to help lift each other up. I am all about being authentic. We have to stop “faking it until we make it.”

For about a week, I’d been feeling down in the dumps about a couple of mistakes I made back in college. I felt so ashamed. I know that God has forgiven me for everything, but I couldn’t forgive myself and move on. It was bothering me so much that I was “reliving” my mistakes in my dreams. I was terrified of recommitting them. On Saturday night, I decided I had enough of Satan accusing me. I had enough of living in regret. I had enough of feeling guilty. I closed my eyes and poured my heart out to God. He responded. He reminded me of several things in His word. One thing He said to me was that He has forgotten about my mistakes. He doesn’t see me that way. I’ve repented and my slate/heart/soul has been wiped clean. Then the song by Casting Crowns called “East to West” popped into my head. The song is based upon Psalm 103:12 “As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us.”

Then God reminded me about King David and Paul. King David committed adultery and murdered his lover’s husband. Paul used to persecute Christians. Sounds bad. But, David is known as a man after God’s heart. Yeah, he made a huge mistake, but he repented. God responded, forgave him, and continued to use him. Same for Paul. Same for us. It does not matter where we have been, God does not see our sin as he casts them far from us. And guess what, we will screw up again. Yes, hopefully we will have learned from our mistakes and yes, our sin does carry some consequences, but God will forgive us when we ask Him.

This brings me to 3 final points. 1) Don’t let your past haunt you. Satan wants you to doubt God’s work in you. He is the liar and the accuser, not God. Don’t believe it. Leave your past in the past. 2) We are no better than anyone else. Please don’t judge someone else’s mistakes or their past. All of us have sinned. All of us have made mistakes. If we didn’t, God wouldn’t have sent Jesus to save us. PS. Being a Christian doesn’t prevent us from sinning, either. If it did, the Gospel would be a formula, and not about a growing relationship with God. 3) If we are willing & obedient, God will use us no matter what we’ve done wrong & in spite of our weaknesses because then His glory shines…not ours. It’s all about Him anyway.

I’ve been praying about this post for a couple of days. Then this morning in my devotion, the message is directly on point with my post. Awesome! Here’s the scripture passages on David & Paul, and a few others:

“Abraham — a liar (Genesis 12:13) and impatient (Genesis 16:2), but known as a man of faith.

Moses — a murderer (Exodus 2:12), but known as the lawgiver & led God’s people out of Egypt.

David — an adulterer (2 Samuel 11:2-5), but known as a man after God’s own heart.

Elijah — prone to despair & suicide (1 Kings 19:3-4), but a prophet.

Paul — persecutor (Acts 8:3), but became a great evangelist.

Rahab — prostitute (Joshua 2, 6), but God used her to save men’s lives.” In my Bible there is a side note in Joshua 2 that says: “Rahab didn’t allow her past to keep her from the new role God had for her.”

I hope this encourages you 🙂 It certainly has motivated me to keep pressing on in this new life God has for me.

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