There is a purpose for everything. That’s it. There is usually a lesson, too. Actually, lessons are usually the reason for our circumstances. I know there are many lessons for the season I’m in, too. My biggest one is trusting God when my bank account doesn’t make sense. Trusting Him to provide because I CAN’T DO it. I sure have tried my hardest, which hasn’t been enough.
But, that’s okay, as we learned from my other posts, we can’t do life alone no matter how much we try to. We need our friends and family, but we have God to help us. Only He can provide us with everything we need to live a victorious life.
Over the last year or so, God has been saying this to me repeatedly, “Hey, trust Me, I know what I’m doing, you don’t. Please let Me handle it.” I thought that I’ve surrendered many times, but maybe not 100% because I’m still in the same boat. If God wanted to provide for us financially through me having a job…I’d ALREADY have one. God isn’t lining up just any job for me. He’s got something in mind. It’s up to me whether I’m going to be PATIENT enough to wait for it.
Patience is a difficult thing for me. With our instant-everything world, it’s hard for us to wait for anything. Think about it. I’ll let you take a few moments to think about your life. We don’t like waiting for anything, especially when we’re uncomfortable. I certainly don’t.
BOOKS. Yay! I love reading and writing. If I didn’t have this time to write, my first novel still wouldn’t be finished, and I wouldn’t have been able to write A LOT on my second one. It took a long time to complete my first novel. However, I wrote more than half, say 70% of Resolve in just 2.5 months. Miraculous. Woo hoo! Thank you, Lord for blessing me with productive & creative time.
My Husband. I love being a housewife when I’m not working a 9-5 job. He works so hard at his job, and puts in a lot of extra hours to provide for us. I am always looking for ways to help him. I don’t enjoy chores so to speak, but I really don’t mind doing them at all. I’ll throw on some music and make it fun for myself. Also, I’m home to prepare dinner for us. It really blesses my husband when I cook for him (and he’s a great chef himself). I’m so glad I’m home to take care of him (and take a load off for him). When I have a job, those other things fall to the wayside because I just don’t have the energy to do everything.
OTHERS. This season has allowed me to really invest in others. I enjoy dropping everything when I get a phone call or text message to pray for someone, listening to someone who needs to vent, or to meet a friend to pray for her. If I feel particularly burdened about something on a given day, I spend more time in prayer & I don’t have to think about getting to work on time. I’m flexible when friends or family want to call me. One great thing about writing is that I can change my schedule. The only time I don’t answer is if I’m in the middle of writing a scene and I don’t want to lose my train of thought. Other than that, I love feeling so free with my schedule! It opens the door for a lot of creativity, which I really need to write fiction. And, I love being there for someone else. I do not miss saying “no” to people due to work scheduling conflicts or to someone with an immediate need and I can answer the phone because I’m not at work.
Now that I’ve learned this (again), and changed my perspective (again), I will start this week off feeling hopeful. Whether I gain employment this week or not, God will take care of our needs. I have NO IDEA how this week is going to work out, let alone tomorrow. I’m taking it one day at a time. I made a promise to myself to not worry about “tomorrow.” I must focus on these few things: God is in control. He promises to provide. He loves me and my husband more than we love each other. God is faithful. God is trustworthy. God is BIG. Knowing all of this, how dare I not believe? I do. We’re going to be more than okay. He’s taken care of us so far, and I’m not going to stop trusting Him now.
For those who are followers of Jesus, we’re not ever just passing through. Many times we don’t have it all together. If you’ve read my blog long enough, you know that I don’t. I wish I did have it all together all the time; but then I wouldn’t be able to give God glory because I wouldn’t see evidence of Him in my life, and I wouldn’t have any material to write about. Life is messy. We have a Savior who wants us to turn it over to Him. Please don’t be stubborn or impatient like me because it’s not really worth it. You will have peace if you surrender. Ask God if there’s something He wants to teach you or show you…someday, you will be glad you did.